People often ask me about my personal darkness, and it is difficult for me to come up with an answer on the spur of the moment. On one hand I have my beast that guides me but on the other it is rooted in what I believe and what life is to me. After that there is what darkness is to me and my belief of the misconception people have about the light. These are just major points in what my darkness is; another piece is the dark knight that resides in me and his true nature. He in himself embodies all that my darkness is and who I shape my life after.
The beast within is a popular subject amongst authors who write about people or creatures living with a duality in their life. In popular Vampire games it is what is used to describe the blood lust in each vampire character. The beast within is in each of us, it is what drives our basic emotions and instincts.
My beast is what I gave into and it has shown me the major flaws within humanity. Man is a creature of comfort; in fact mankind has almost destroyed the world in the pursuit of ease and comfort. I sit and see the nature of people around me and at times it makes me cringe at the length people will go to gain something they want and then discard it because it is no longer wanted. I have seen this happen within hours and the effort put out carried consequences that lasted a lifetime.
My beast shuns humanity to a point of men’s laws are irrelevant and a waste, after all the laws of nature govern and control all creatures even men. Men’s laws only apply is someone catches you where nature is always vigilant and exacts full retribution at her chosen time and there is no escaping it. Try to say that about the laws of men.
My beast is a dark creature to begin with however, unlike most would have you believe, that does not make it evil or bad. In the dark things exist and just are, the shadows about them make them indefinable therefore cannot be judged. This is the misconception most people have, all things good and evil, if you believe in such a thing, are within the realm of light. In darkness acceptance and choice reigns, in light judgment, definition and conformists exist.
Normal society is of the light and it dictates how to think, react and judge everything one comes across. Society looks for what is the same in everyone and tries, rather convincingly, to get everyone to conform to its ideals. In darkness one questions everything in the light society would have one question nothing.
In my beliefs, there may be many gods but I tend to look at them as forces of nature. The forces I follow are the force of the hunt, the moon and that of chaos. These are the forces that reign over my life and I pay the respect and due following. The laws of my faith is simple one is to be honorable, follow natures law and only give in to the laws of men when it conflicts with the natural instinct to be free. Humanity is a balance to the beast that I follow and I use it to make my life better without destroying nature.
This brings me to the dark knight. He is me and I am he. He is a traveler of life that walks his own path and heeds only the laws of nature and his own truths. He is a blessing to those he cares for and who he chooses to help, he is a nightmare to those who would oppose him and deadly to those who would be his enemy. He is selfless with those that he cherishes, charitable with those he would call friend, indifferent to those who are just there and a demon to those whom cross arms with him.
He stands alone to protect and watch over the world, he indulges in emotion when he chooses and never give in or up no matter the pain it may bring. He despises deception, welcomes loyalty and honesty and does what he thinks is right not that is expected of him by others. He cares not to have material things for they are only for a moment, he only seeks that which he needs and indulges in the luxuries of life as only a means to pass the time.
This is my darkness, in no way is this complete but it should shed a little insight into my world. After all truth is but a perspective and mine is a valid as anyone else’s. In the darkness I am able to accept all humanity the way it is, can you?
The beast within is a popular subject amongst authors who write about people or creatures living with a duality in their life. In popular Vampire games it is what is used to describe the blood lust in each vampire character. The beast within is in each of us, it is what drives our basic emotions and instincts.
My beast is what I gave into and it has shown me the major flaws within humanity. Man is a creature of comfort; in fact mankind has almost destroyed the world in the pursuit of ease and comfort. I sit and see the nature of people around me and at times it makes me cringe at the length people will go to gain something they want and then discard it because it is no longer wanted. I have seen this happen within hours and the effort put out carried consequences that lasted a lifetime.
My beast shuns humanity to a point of men’s laws are irrelevant and a waste, after all the laws of nature govern and control all creatures even men. Men’s laws only apply is someone catches you where nature is always vigilant and exacts full retribution at her chosen time and there is no escaping it. Try to say that about the laws of men.
My beast is a dark creature to begin with however, unlike most would have you believe, that does not make it evil or bad. In the dark things exist and just are, the shadows about them make them indefinable therefore cannot be judged. This is the misconception most people have, all things good and evil, if you believe in such a thing, are within the realm of light. In darkness acceptance and choice reigns, in light judgment, definition and conformists exist.
Normal society is of the light and it dictates how to think, react and judge everything one comes across. Society looks for what is the same in everyone and tries, rather convincingly, to get everyone to conform to its ideals. In darkness one questions everything in the light society would have one question nothing.
In my beliefs, there may be many gods but I tend to look at them as forces of nature. The forces I follow are the force of the hunt, the moon and that of chaos. These are the forces that reign over my life and I pay the respect and due following. The laws of my faith is simple one is to be honorable, follow natures law and only give in to the laws of men when it conflicts with the natural instinct to be free. Humanity is a balance to the beast that I follow and I use it to make my life better without destroying nature.
This brings me to the dark knight. He is me and I am he. He is a traveler of life that walks his own path and heeds only the laws of nature and his own truths. He is a blessing to those he cares for and who he chooses to help, he is a nightmare to those who would oppose him and deadly to those who would be his enemy. He is selfless with those that he cherishes, charitable with those he would call friend, indifferent to those who are just there and a demon to those whom cross arms with him.
He stands alone to protect and watch over the world, he indulges in emotion when he chooses and never give in or up no matter the pain it may bring. He despises deception, welcomes loyalty and honesty and does what he thinks is right not that is expected of him by others. He cares not to have material things for they are only for a moment, he only seeks that which he needs and indulges in the luxuries of life as only a means to pass the time.
This is my darkness, in no way is this complete but it should shed a little insight into my world. After all truth is but a perspective and mine is a valid as anyone else’s. In the darkness I am able to accept all humanity the way it is, can you?
